你不是个好男人

男生，要是你真的是个男生，其实我应该用男人这字眼吧，因为毕竟都十八岁了。

要是你真的是个男人，不管女生如何发脾气，在任何一个情况之下，你都不该还手，除非你有生命危险。

要是你还是个男人，还手了过后就应该立即去道歉，不是坐在那里还死命说不是自己做错，有意挑衅女生再次动手。

今天，你都让大家真正地了解了你，我们也不需要更深一步去认识你，因为对我们来说，一个忍心拿椅子丢回女生的男人，让两个女生同时流泪的男人，不会是个好人。

Physics boys better? really?!

Today is the most ridiculous day in my life.

I really and nearly wanna make a debate with my bio teacher(i still wanna use the word teacher, yeah i'm kiddo, so what?), the moment i heard these words:" The bio presentation is very bad. I think the Physics boys done better than you all." The first thing that strike my mind: Either she's is kidding or she's out of her mind...

I mean come on, seriously?

Does she has any idea how torn our heart is when she say so? I remember me and pei zhen watching each other helplessly and we both just, well, completely speechless. For the first time in my life I learn to be speechless, and thanks a lot to you teacher.

I used to just ignore her words before but today her words are too much.I felt heartbroken and heartache, that she does not see how much effort we put on the presentation. We even used our weekend to gather in Ser's house twice to do group discussion to make it almost perfect.Not to mention difficulty to understand the information we got and choosing the points to be presented. It's not like we going to copy everything from wikipedia and put the whole thing in our slide.

Me, Pei Zhen and Ser(as far as I know in my group that) took it seriously and spent all our time the night before the collocium to practice and we actually memorised our speech, despite that the year-end examination is coming. But it's human nature that we got nervous during the presentation and appeared to tend to rely much on the papers we're holding.

And now she's telling me that the Physics group which does not even have a single proper group discussion, just download the whole slides from internet, and those boys who just read everything accordingly to the screen is a lot hell better than us? THIS IS CRAZY.

It's sad that she feels bad about everything we had done without really see through it.Maybe for her the outcome is everything and the process is nothing. I'm glad that next year we won't be doing anymore bio presentation. I prefer taking chemistry or muet or even pa because the teachers in charge have a better sense of judgement and chemi's teacher does shows her appreciation for students' effort in making the presentation.

For those who is interested in or being selected to do biology presentation, here's my advice: just put everything you copy from internet on the slides and read it when it appears on the screen, plus a little intonation BECAUSE IT LOOKS BRILLIANT FOR OUR BIO TEACHER.

If I were you, I would grab this golden opportunity, after all it's easy and you don't even have to be well-prepared.

God I just getting to lose my interest over biology and sick of Form Six.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The moment I pulled out the mug cup from the box, and saw the prettily printed Hayley Williams pictures on the mug I shouted immediately. Then I was like a madman screamed again and again and again, until I felt that my throat was already a bit sore! Not buying my story? You can ask anyone presented today in Ser's house.

I mean are you kidding me? A HAYLEY WILLIAMS MUG CUP!!!!!!!!!

I tried to search for hayley's merchandise on the internet before but all are very expensive, all sold in America and American dollars. And i just not dare enough to buy them through internet, it's too far, inconvenient and not convincing.

Later they asked me what am I expected to see inside the box? I told them honestly that I was expecting for Paramore's album.They explained to me that they had tried their best, walked and searched from shop to shop but in vain. I was happy that my friends were willing to spend their precious time that was supposed to use to study for the coming exam, just to look for something I would like the most as gift. How thoughtful are them? So sweet...

You cant tell how much I love the present and how much I appreciate their effort. It's my luck to have such good friends. Although they don't like Paramore the way I do, they respected my opinion and bear in mind that this octopus is very fond of Paramore. I do heard from some Paramore's fans complaining that their friends really hate them each time for mentioning Paramore and some even do not care about what they like. Other are being boycotted or isolated, just because they like something their friends do not like.

I know why Paramore CD are hard to appear here, because they are under the company `Fueled By Ramen',ever heard about this company in Malaysia? Neither do I.Usually copies of CD from foreign artists under Warner Music, Universal or Sony BMG can be easily obtained here in Malaysia.

Soooo...let me down!

I just finished downloaded Paramore ``Brand New Eyes". So fast right? Their albums will only be available on the market this 29th of September, but i have already listen to all their new songs.

Yeah yeah I know I know I am the worst paramore's fan ever in this world. Cant blame me dude, it isnt likely to be appear in this country and even it is(i think it would take years to finally put my hands on their album) i am not so rich to buy the original one.

But after listening to the very much awaiting songs since I found out about their new coming album, i was just like having my heart broken.Ouch...Is that my paramore?

Their songs...I felt like rejected by their songs whereas before this I used to live in their songs...Is it their songs that rejecting me or I am the one who rejecting their songs?

They seems to have transformed into another new band comer which is totally stranger to me. They are no longer powerful and lively that i want as in the previous album `Riot'. According to several album reviews on the internet, Paramore is said to have grown up in this albums. Yeah in the writing of lyrics, Hayley really showed her maturity.

Is this the outcome resulted from a band which had had internal argues and affairs that took place between the team members after the fame through the twilight song decode, breaking the band into pieces, and now leaving the scars on it although they somehow finally find a way to put all the things behind and rejoined as a band?

Scars that will not fade away...Hayley's lyric in Emergency haha.

Out of all the songs in Brand New Eyes, the songs that can carry on their survival in my mp4 are Where The Lines Overlap, Ignorant, Playing God and Careful.The rest i am going to delete them. Hey, i have been quite lenient to them by including the other three on my list together with WTLO. If you have free time but you have no idea how to spend it I strongly recommend you to go to youtube and listen to WTLO. I think it's the best of the Brand New Eyes.

Maybe after producing this album they can take a break and be away from the music industry? This is to help them to gain back their...hmm...what should i say...power of creativity in making great songs again?

In the looking and finding of paramore songs in youtube, i saw someone posted a comment which sound like this: `` I have the cd. It's shit." I hate to say this, but I have to agree with her(Okay paramore fans prepare your knives). Billboard rated this album 81% out of 100%. Actually it's quite high for me...They really fail it, or maybe my expectation is too high?

Perhaps it's time for me to look for another band? Don't worry I'll still be with the band but to focus a little bit more on the other one. Hey Monday?

I am glad to still have critics and opinions towards Paramore'songs, it proves that I am not an extremist crazy phycho fans who would thumbs up for everything their idols did.Hey look I still have my sense of judgement working!

Seriously, I fucking hate this life!

This time i wont gonna use f@#$ing to cover up my shame for using this rude word in my blog, because this is my blog! I wont fucking care what people thinking of me when see all these fucking words because I have had enough of losing control over my own life so dont tell me what to do and dont in my own blog!!!

For a second u juz wont leave me alone yea? Wont u? U juz cant stand watching me live peacefully in my world u juz wanna come messing up everything?!!

U trouble u keep on hunting me why dont u juz go and find new fresh target and trouble them and leave me alone! U juz carry on go against me in everything! Did I owe u anything juz tell me and I'll will return that fucking shit i owed u!

I have had enough dealing with hurt and sadness and disappointment in my entire life so far, so juz disapppear!!! Havent u ruin my life enough?!! I fucking sick of this hell life!

People dont really understand till they go through and deal with these fucking hardships...What they see is the outside which we pretend,or the mask we wear during the recovering process. What they dont see is the inner crying sad soul in ourselves(for those who are having or had exactly the same hardships because i didnt include those who were lucky to born with silver spoon).

People only know to say: Dont be sad. Life's like that.../ Maybe this is your destiny and you'll be better after all / I'm sorry... / MAybe it's because your past life's sin that u have done /There's some other their lives sucker than you ...........And now its my turn to say something: Say that again WHEN it come right onto your face! Now fuck off! I dont wanna spent my life thinking that somebody's life whom i dont know and cant see sucker than me because at this moment i only care about myself!

Do you think it's that easy to carry on living an empty life without a father? Do you think it's that easy to live a worried life concerning problems that happen every day and you have to take care of everything that supposed to be a father responsibilities? Do you think it's that easy to look for help with someone you hated before and now you have to beg and ask him or her to help you? Do you think it's that easy dealing with hurts again and again and again non-stop?
IS THAT SO EASY??? WELL IF IS THINK AGAIN YOU MORON!

They say every difficulties make you tougher, but it's torning me into pieces. It's killing me...Facing all these and feeling the sadness alone, and the whole world seems to want your life...

It's juz like the Conspiracy sang by Paramore. As if they were singing me...every single words in the lyrics, touching me from the inside of me that is hiding beneath me,that nobody could see it, feel it or touch it...

Auntie, the god will curse you!

Today was an angry day.

My sisters in KL got into an car accident this morning. And they were hit by an auntie.

It is the auntie's fault. She gave a signal indicating that she want to turn left into the 'lorong'. My elder sister who was driving the car would like to turn right out of the lorong.

Every driver would do the same thing as my sister. She saw the signal and assumed that that old slut want to turn into the lorong( common sense, that's why we put the signal there), so she turned right. But the slut did not change her direction and went on straight, and crashed into my sister's Kelisa.

Poor Kelisa, the front tyre deformed and the car lost control, then hit the TNB building.

The asshole bitch, at first was very frightened, but after talking to someone on the phone, she turned relax as if nothing happened. And she smugly said that it was my sister fault. My sister told me she was rich.

Then they went to police station and made a report. Supprisingly, the police said that it was my sister fault, because my sister was on the lorong and the jerk was on main road. And my sister was fined RM300. Guess what that little bitch do? She sat on the chair comfortably, and reading a magazine inside the police station.

Later my sisters discovered the reason she could stay so calm and pretend nothing happened. She or her somebody knew somebody working inside the police station. Or we can say her rich family background.

So unfair, isn't it? Just because we were poor, we will always be the wrong one. Just because we did not know somebody inside, we were treated badly.

For me, I hoped God curse her. I hoped one day when her children face the same thing like what she did to my sister, I was there to open my eyes widely, watching and enjoying every moment. You laugh when you do it, and you shall cry when it comes back to you.

God will curse you, auntie!

最近

最近，渐渐开始习惯一个人吃早餐了。你要是在早上也去客来座吃早餐，你通常都会看到我。一个人孤零零坐着的那个人就是我了。

有时就只跑去那里喝它的白咖啡而已，够无聊的我吧？为什么我没找人陪？ 不知道。

起初的中六生活还好啦，不过自从实行到四点就破坏一切了。累到......(没有话讲)。只觉得很浪费时间。

最近没时间听歌，所以也不懂有什么新歌。有的话介绍给我吧，不过只限英文歌。

很想到美国生活。体验一下在那里住的感觉。

要是中六是每一个学生都必须就读的，那该多好。我们大家还会在一起，在中正一起读书。

好期待Paramore的新专辑，不过不喜欢他们对Ignorance拍摄出的MV。

期待他们的新歌where the lines overlap,感觉很好听。迷上Hayley Williams，因为她的声音就算在演唱会还是那么的好听。不愧是实力派+偶像派歌手。只是她对服装方面比较没taste，希望能改吧。

上周在班偷吃面包，被罚五块钱。被抓时手上还粘着oren jam。

那里比我们小的巡查员都是吃粪长大，没大没小，胜化去跟他们讨签名时被整到发火。整天只会罚人，骂人，看他们把自己扮得一本正经，高高在上，其实男女都桥到要命，最鄙视这种人。

跟你说吧，那天有个男的巡查员一直盯着我们这一群，老梅还被他骂唱国歌还在玩闹，其实那时候我很想对他说，：“你的拉链没关好。”

恨一点的话：“你妈的拉链没关好，弄我眼静肮脏罢了。”

英文歌有华文歌没有

已经很久很久都没听华文歌了。我想大概有一年多了。以前会听华文歌是因为受到二姐的渲染，可是现在她去了吉隆坡。

所以每当美樱她们讲起华文歌或歌手时，我都会一头雾水。班上同学唱起华文歌，我只能傻傻的看着她们，不能欣赏欣赏一番。

目前为止，我只关注西洋的娱乐圈，很少会去注意华人娱乐圈。

因为我超爱西洋歌具有的rock和electropop，在华文歌是找不到的。华文歌是抒情又soft的。当然，我所谓的rock不是那种非常刺耳的rock。

大部分的华文歌都是以爱情为主题，除了爱爱爱,就是爱。当然，英文歌也有，只不过英文歌的主题是以生活（包括了爱情）为主题，什么不满意的，讨厌的，失望的，不公平的，激励人的等等都发泄在歌曲里。听他们的歌时，我一样可以发泄我心中的不满。比如：all american reject 的 give you hell，paramore 的 pressure, misery bussiness 和 born for this, linkin park 的 new divide,what i've done,no more sorrow,crawling,numb, simple plan 的 welcome to my life,shut up,generation 还有green day 的 know your enemy 就是最好的例子。华文歌同样也有，只不过少之又少，而且唱得不够power。

所以我爱英文歌，因为它唱出了我的心里话。

风和日丽心情好，就算天下雨也一样好！

今天真的很高兴。要如何形容呢？

就好像被困在滚水鱼缸里的水母被放生于大海洋里。

就好像被困在蛇笼里的鸡被放出来。

就好像跟狮子被困在一起的长颈鹿被释放回森林里。

就好像被摆放在火热热微波炉很久的肉包终于被拿出来卖。

哈。我们都是刚从千年地狱使者手中逃生出来。都跟你说天有眼的。

以后，我可以用仇恨的眼望鄙视这个人不是人的女恶魔。

我只想对你说：你 可 以 永 远 消 失。有本事就带着那笔不道德的补习费和没尽一个老师所能教书却照常领薪水的脏钱去见阎罗王。顺便帮我跟他说嗨。

我真的很厌恶这个女人。或许是因为我的性格是特别不能接受这一类人。或许也因为我是天秤座的，正义感特别的强。（不要笑啦。）

上天真的还蛮疼爱我们。把我们从痛苦中救了出来。其实她这一个礼拜给的功课我完全没动到。反正她都教得不明不白，我又不是天才不会自己做，所以我就干脆一点赌一次，要是我没被她继续教就不用交她那死人功课，要是被她教就唯有赶到半命了。

哈，结果我在学生生涯最危险的一次赌赢了。跟你说，当我们追问当时拿着新时间表的Rickye，谁教数学一时， 我可以非常肯定我的心脏是停下来的。我想大家也是如此。（我承认我很夸张。）当时的情形就好比你拿出全部家产跟人赌着玩chao dai di那种紧张的一刻，结果你开到最大的dai di，当场就直接把布克牌摔那人得脸。而且两张还是double的。那种感觉，真~爽~~~~~~！！

不过就可怜那些被她教的同学了。都叫你们平时多烧香，多做好事，就是不听。没有啦，开玩笑罢了。其实她对你们的执著对你们有一点点的好处，就是会尽量完成她的功课。你看像数学二老师那样，我从开学到现在都没动过她功课。有时还觉得亏欠她，有一种罪恶感。加油吧,我的朋友们！

Shut up ! A quiet environment to mourn for my math please?

Actually I'm having the first test of Form 6 this coming Wednesday. But what I do now is sitting in front of the computer and surf the internet. What am I doing actually? I also don't know.

And my mother keeps on telling me that she will stop the Strmyx(dunno how to spell laa) service if I get a lousy result in the exam. I already can feel that my mathematics is going to fail just because someone isn't doing her job properly, and in the end, the one suffer is me. Still I haven't tell her that I only get 1 mark out of the 27 marks for the paper 1 and 1 out of ten marks of paper 2.Imagine, what my mom gonna' do if I let her know my result. I got so fed up at my math! And this all because of that fellow!

What kind of human being is that? If you did not do the work, you better don't take the salary. What is the purpose of paying you money? What kind of teacher is that? We don't hire you to read us all the examples in the book. We are not blind as you can see. We have eyes and able to read on our own. That's not teaching.That's reading.

And plus, the recent Thursday was really driving me crazy! I tried to hear what she's teaching though I know she's not, but there's some freaking annoying who seemed to just lose their brain, standing outside near the window and shouting a name. What the hell?!

Hello? First, if your friends are targeting a girl, this isn't the way to help him.

Second, the one sitting closest to the window is me, and the one who feel noisy the most is me! And the FRIEND NEAREST TO ME feel the same thing also!

And if you are sending some kind of love code, you know, like Morse code, knocking the board which is just a few cm behind us, please just save your effort cause' we know nothing about Morse code. Therefore we cannot 'decode' it. When i say we, it includes the one sitting next to me!

If you have brain, i mean really have one, you will stop doing that after all. At that moment i just felt like wanna' raise my hand and said: Miss Lee,i can't hear you cause' someone is making noise! For sure you all will be a dead meat!

Besides,if you really want to let her know your feeling, speak to her.Why you have to go such a long way and making so much 小动作behind her back. She's not a nasty girl who will talk back to you badly.

压力+压力+压力.......infinity

我看我快要疯了。

每一天都有读书的压力，一回到家，放下书包后只会想着读书...读书...读书...读书...我吃饱冲凉洗校服后就要读书。我今晚要读书。我要熬夜读书。可是，往往我都只会想，不会做。

哇，我中五接近考SPM的时候也没那么凄惨过。

那种无形无影无色的压力，是多么的可怕。感觉似乎每个时刻都有人在你耳边说：你要读书，不然就会不及格！你要读书，不然就会不及格！你要读书，不然就会不及格! ......

但是，尽管压力多大，我还是没读书。很奇怪咧？我也觉得。我也不知道为什么。就是心里明明烦着读书的事，可是面对的竟然不是书，是电脑。就像现在这样。哈。所以Bio才温习到57页。老师已经教到百多页了。

或许是压力太大了，令我反而不想读。

中六的读书生涯，不像中五。中五你临时抱佛脚都来得及，中六，百多面，字又小小的，而且每一个图片都得背，考试前一天才读是根本来不及的。而我一直以来的读书方式是考试前一天才来把全部东西挤在脑里面。

中六不只读书压力，还有面对老师的压力。最令我讨厌，不，厌恶，不，应该再深一点，恨之入骨的（其实还无法表达我的恨意）非数学一的李彩光人称李菜贵莫属。她这个神经老太婆为了要赚学生的补习费竟然在学校故意教到烂烂，为人又凶到没道理，而且喜欢问那种无关痛痒的问题，甚至可以为了要我们回答她无聊的问题而霸占我们休息时间。简直是老师们的耻辱。真奇怪我大姐怎么能顶她，跑去跟她补习。如果要我选:上她的节还是站在中华女厕里面五分钟，我甘愿站厕所。

中六有很多很多的实验要做，而且差不多完全是个人的，不再像中五那样分组做。中五做实验时我总在一旁摇脚。因为我特别讨厌做试验。因为我就算照着纸上的procedure做也是不会做。因为我总是看不懂那些step。因为我不会用那些apparatus。想到要做试验，我就整个人压力了。老师还说不能问朋友多多，要show出individual work,不然要扣分。她的这一句简直是把我唯一一个希望打破了。而且practical report一定要当天交。
这简直是：压力+压力+压力.......infinity.

开始有一点点后悔为什么不听妈妈的话去做老师。

压力呀！快疯了！有谁知道，除了中六还有什么路可以走吗？不要做工。

两年

我发现，我特别爱在深夜做东西。比如读书，看戏，上网等等。

因为在夜里，会特别的静，只有少许车辆快速飞过，还可以听到垃圾车来捡垃圾的声音。


在夜里，人会变得额外的清醒，当然，那是如果你有睡午觉的话。听歌也听得特别的清楚。只是唯一不爽的是蚊子多。

很多时候我都会想起很多很多以往的故事，伤心的，开心的，丢脸的，烦人的，生气的，都会浮现于脑海中。看看，一转眼十八年了。到底这之前我经过了什么样的生活？谁已经离我而去？谁又是我生活的新来客？

想着想着，眼泪不自觉地打滚在眼眶里。但是，每次都让我挤回去。果然，到现在，我还是会想起以往一家六口不缺的生活。回忆，还是让我流泪。在那一瞬间失去的意志力，竟然花了两年的时间还是找不回。

两年了，两年了。那么快就两年了。这两年过的日子，让我精神疲惫不已。

两年吧，再过两年吧，或许我才能找到我失去已久的一切。但，谁又知道我还有多少个两年？

朋友，心。

朋友，

你要走了，人即将离开这里，那么你的心呢？

是否能留下一小部分给我？而我是否能给你我的一小部分？

让我们都带着彼此的一小部分，走完这个人生。

烂心情，烂人生

今天的心情好烂好烂，因为数学成绩很烂。

数学一，27分里面我只得一分，数学二呢十分也只得一分。

Bio也永远只停留在第41面，现在老师已经教到第101面了。

所以我正在等‘死’，意思是等考试咯。以前至少在5sc1有比我更懒惰虫的同学顶着那些倒数十名的位子，现在的那班全都是整天读书的人，我想这次没有人帮得了我了。还说要自我突破给那些狗眼看人低的人看，简直是放屁。

中六真的比想象中更难。

只是我真的真得很忙，每天除了星四星五，不是我补习就是得载妹妹补习，一来一回都已经花我的时间。这些天我都没得睡午觉，因为睡了就很难醒。

尤其是星一，七点多载她去KB mall对面那里后，就得载妈妈直接弯去Tesco，没得回家。因为妈妈说顺便嘛。之后就陪她逛了差不多两个小时，然后去接妹妹。回到家已经十点多了，又没睡午觉的我根本连做功课都很累，更何况读书？

星五呢，大多数妈妈都要出去逛逛（唉，又逛街）。要不然就是有时要去看亲戚，去人家结婚，满月，一大堆啦。所以通常星五一整天都不在家的。

要是学校真的实行学习到四点的制度，我想我会是伤害最大的第一个受害者。

开始，寂寞

你已经不再来学校上课了。


走去你的班，看着你那空空无人的椅子，想起了我们以前的故事。


突然觉得很寂寞。非常的寂寞。


我想我会开始学习习惯你不在我身边的日子。

有趣的人生~

人生其实还蛮有趣的。

你可以很厌恶一样东西，然后对自己说我才不会做这种事情。

但往往我们都会别无选择，到最后还是得做着这所谓自己非常厌恶的事情。

然后在这个我们说过自己才不会做的事情从中取得好处。

这就是人生咯。

我是中正的，我就是坏学生？

真的真的非常超级讨厌她。

为什么到现在你还要问我们是中华中华中正的？重要吗？

我们到底做错了什么？只因为我们不是从中华来的，而你是中华老师，所以我们一定是烂学生？

去你的。

你教出来的中华学生也不见得好到哪里去。

真不敢相信我还要继续呆在那里一年多来受这样不公平的歧视。

更不敢相信我以后还要双眼水汪汪地看着她好让我的PEKA分数高一点。

不要紧。这口气，我就把它吞下。

人在做，天在看。或许你明天突然消失等等，那么我们就可以换老师了！

反正这两年的时间多得是，你一定会有一天就那么倒霉的，因为你是被所有的中正学生咒骂，团结就是力量。

哈哈！到时候我会是鼓掌最大声的那一个。

疯，傻

疯和傻遇见彼此，是一种说不出的幸福。

因为当疯和傻走在一起时，疯可以真的是疯，也可以是傻，而傻可以真的是傻，也可以是疯。

疯离开后，傻也不再是傻。因为傻已经习惯有疯的存在。

疯，要幸福哦。

疯，你知不知道傻在写这个时，心里是流着泪的？

中正我想你！5sc1 is the best!

曾经有位老师告诉我们要珍惜中正学校，要不然等你去了中华你就知道。

当时我在心里还好大口气地说，哼，中华好多了，不会抓人眼镜或叫人当场脱袜子。

后来去到了中华，才发现它是多么的惨不忍睹。我不是因为中华不是我的母校而刻意嫌弃它或是鸡蛋里挑骨头，，我只是依事论事，说出真心话。拜托，我何德何能要去恶意批评它，搞不好人家说你有本事就不要留在中华。可是要是中华学生去到了中正，我想他们也会这么想。中正学生也是如此。

从外面来看，中华学校的确比中正壮观许多，那是由于外人看到的是刚新建的宏愿楼和小学的建筑物。

等你进到里面中学的课室，你就会不自然的张大嘴巴，那里是多么的残旧。这时你就会了解洋人爱说的一句话：dont judge the book by its cover.我们的课室还好，因为去年刚装修过，不过听说这之前已经荒废很多年了，今年才开始用起。

厕所呢，这就要问中正的旧学生是否还记得我们还没修建过之前的旧厕所，那里的厕所比我们中正旧版的厕所还要糟糕。天啊，真不敢相信我还要用那个厕所一年多。所以若非情非得已，我是不会用那里的厕所。你以为像以前在中正咩，爽爽就去逛厕所，进去到里面什么都没做，就是去照镜子或洗手而已然后就走出来。多么的无聊。

这几天我都好想念中正的食堂！尤其那里美味的炒饭。以前还一直埋怨中正食堂洗东西不干净，现在终于觉得那些工作人员相当尽责。我第一次去吃中华的炒饭，贵又少，那还不要紧，当我走去拿汤匙时，我的妈呀，那汤匙不只非常的油（简直是用油洗出来的），还粘着一条面！从此我就不吃那里煮的东西了。所以要不是我饥饿无比，我都不会去食堂。

以前在中正真的真的很幸福，至少不会有老师以出至不同的母校看不起我们（我是出之中正小学的），在中正，除了第一年，总该不会有老师一直称学生中正学生，培植学生，那样吧。在那里就有了，而且还做得很明显，整天你们中正学生不好你们中正学生不对，每次都说我们不穿vest出去，好像在中正没有这个规则。要不是我还得待在那里直到毕业，我早就给她脸色看。

那里的学生的确跟我校学生的文化很大的差别。在那里越久，越想念5sc1。想念我们以前整班一起炸来炸去，说笑做傻的感觉，还有一起炸老师的日子。在那里不止要言语谨慎，不能随便说话（尤其是开黄腔，不然后果自负），上课时也不能笑大大声，更不能莫名其妙地笑，不然整班会转过来瞪你。可是我都全犯了。而且还有的会以成绩看人，老实说，你成绩烂就不用想要那些人尊重你，就算你的为人有多么多么的好。成绩=地位=朋友人数。其实我真的想来个突破，吓坏那些人，叫他们以后不要狗眼看人低，可是我就是那么的懒惰，这种工，还是留给颖盈她们做吧。

跟他们一起上课的日子是非常非常地静，连一声嗯也没有。他们每一个都是慧盈，老师不在或空节时都会乖乖地做功课，读书又一级棒。爱捣乱的我，能继续活在那样的乖仔班，真是个奇迹。所以你说我能不想念5Sc1吗?通常在班大声说大声笑作乱的，通常都是我们这几个中正的（其实是我啦）。你们也知道我的笑声,所以他们的反应你也大概猜到吧。

对，中华不会抓人眼镜或叫人当场脱袜子，可是，我第一天去中华登记时，就已经被老师抓头发了。我们当中差不多全部女生都被抓头发，除了颖盈（明明她的头发也不短）。之后突击检查时老师总是虎视眈眈地望着我的头发，害我也跟着她们心惊胆跳，从来都没试过在被检查头发时有这样的感觉。后来才发现中华对女生头发特别严，比中正更严。那里的纪律团体更是严上加严，巡查员超尽责。中华也跟中正一样，不允许学生带外面的食物入校，不过在中华学生下课时可以留在班，可是不能吃东西，要是给那些巡查员看到，RM5就会跟你说拜拜。就算你是他的同学，照样没人情说。都跟你说了他们超级超级尽责。

说了这么多，是不是很怀念中正学校咧...

祝福你

还以为这是个圆满的结局。

身边朋友少了,我们接触彼此的机会更多。

还以为至少能和你一起度过两年中六的生涯，一起为STPM奋斗。

老天就是这么爱拿缘分来开玩笑，说来就来，说走就走, 狼狈而来，匆忙地走。

或许命中注定我们俩缘份短暂，或许老天要我知道自己是多么的依赖你。

我最不希望发生的，而你最期待的，落实了。那天你信息我说，你得到了师训。其实我们俩都知道，那并不是你想要得，那是遵从家人的意愿。

那时候，我只感到失望与悲伤。说实话，我并没有因为你终于等到了心目中的happy ending而替你感到高兴，丝毫也没有。我承认，我很自私。我实在不能欺骗自己让心里好受些，我是真的做不到。我只知道，我是真的真的真的做不到…
至少我不爽时，我可以跑过去找你。至少有人愿意听我讲废话，甚至陪我疯狂。至少我不会一个人孤零零吃早餐。至少我身边还有你。好怕孤单再次降临，就像我还没熟悉你之前。好怕你离开后变成另外一个人。好怕我们的友谊会因此而变化。好怕好怕。

我一直问你是否去意已定，问了又问，请不要感到厌烦，因为我知道自己无法挽留你，能做的就是如此。就算心里多么清楚你给我的答案永远不会是我最想听到的。或许要等到你离开这里的那一天，我才会相信，才会停止问你。

此时此刻，我只能够祝福你，为你祈祷，希望你一路上顺顺利利，平平安安，活得比我还要快乐。

别了，朋友。虽然我还是觉得你不适合当老师。