Fuck that teacher carrier. No way.

Okay, it's been a long time that this issue had ran in my family. Now it's worsen. The issue is that my mother just can't accept that none of us of her four daughter is going to be a TEACHER.

Yeah, erm....I know I know, the fact that my elder sister is completing her Master thesis while working her full-time job, my second sister a jobless fresh UM graduand, me is going to end my Form 6 life soon and my little sister as a new comer in Lower 6, all this does not seem to put a beautiful ending to the melancholic pitiful a-teacher-to-be issue.

Yes, you heard me. No, I'm not kidding. How can someone that had graduate from a university or just about to end her STPM education still have that kind of hope? Well, ask my mom.

Well as for me, I didn't think that the issue will arise once again in this way. Never at all. The issue restarted with my sister being jobless after she decided to resign as AIA admin and went back to hometown. She succeeded a second interview but had to reject the job due to the poor payment offered.

So my mom, started to nagging and mumbling about the favourite course she picked that made her jobless. No mom, she picked that course because she had to if she were to enter university with her STPM result.

So while my mom is talking about how my sister should apply for the course of teacher right now blah-blah-blah to me, suddenly I just had the heart to stand out and speak for my poor sister. I was telling her how her effort, 4 years in university would just varnished in second and the certificate that she worked hard for is no more than a piece of junk if she were to do so. In that case, she should had apply for maktab and not to form 6 and went through one of the hardest test in the world, 6 years ago.

The next thing that happened, totally shut my mouth up. My mom replied me: "Then what is the use you study Form 6 harh? What for you study Form 6? "

Hello, I only left one and a half month to strive for my STPM which is just around the corner, and you're saying these words? Oh my god, it's the ridiculous thing a child had ever listen from the mouth of a mother while she's figuring out how to make full use of the remaining time studying for her STPM!

I would rather that you forced me, made me go for maktab a year ago, than listening to you saying studying STPM is useless just when the exam is coming! All we want is your moral support for what we're doing now, but why can't you? Why can't you?! Is it so hard for you to be supportive to your own daughter? Why you like to listen to those stupid idiots? But not us? If dad were around, he would be supporting us...

Thank you mom, when I was worrying about my STPM, you just killed my study heart again and shattered me into peices.

God help me.

Just realise that I have less than 3 months to study for my STPM. All of sudden when I think of the time left I got nervous breakdown just now.

Seriously? I haven't study my biology volume 2 which is about 400 pages thick, haven't revise any of the 3 chemistry books (organic,inorganic and physical), haven't do any exercise for saving my math and starting to forget pengajian am and biology volume 1. Needless to say I haven't touch any of the pass years of the four subjects.

Seems to you I really in a big trouble right? Yeah I know. This 2 weeks holiday is like a precious treasure to me. Once gone, you wont get anymore golden chance this year.

Form 6? No kidding.